Something that I can do less of is internalizing my emotions. I have been doing this since I was a child. Affection always made me uncomfortable. I feel like affection arouses an anxiety in me and me being non-affectionate is a defense mechanism from rejection. Through therapy and writing poetry, I am going to try and learn how to display my emotions more and show affection to my loved ones.
Scapegoat is the brain
not the heart.
Affection plays no part
in my character,
It didn’t make it
past the lords audition
at my mother’s birth.
Love has no script
to follow,
but realized
no story needed
a for plot to wallow
in my troubles.
My world is a non-fiction
story.
Don’t need an author
or illustrator
to explain the main
event in my life story.
The setting of my life is darkness,
I was introduced to demons,
Which made me non-affectionate,
Subconsciously caused a conflict
Due to my lack of expression.
Loneliness and regrets are the climax.